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Friday, October 14, 2011
A couple of weeks ago I tried an experiment--not to read for a week. I didn't think of this on my own; I was under the influence of some ideas popularized by Julia Cameron in her famous (or infamous, depending upon how you look at it) program, The Artist's Way.
At first the idea struck me--as it will no doubt strike you--as ludicrous. Give up reading?! For a week? During the teaching semester?! IMPOSSIBLE. But then I remembered that over the summer, while on the boat and in the throes of repairs, though I felt terribly guilty about it, I'd sometimes gone days without reading. I knew I could do it, so I decided to try. The week before the week I was going to give up reading, I read relentlessly. There were classes to prepare, things to find out, a sort of bottomless well to fill up before I ceased moving my eyes across print.
And then, suddenly, there I was, in my week. I resisted the urge to look at the paper in the morning, to log online and cruise the pages of the internet. I avoided facebook, long letters, magazines, and peering over the corners of others' desks at the publications scattered there. And with each gesture of "resistance" to the thrall of print, I became more settled and more relieved. I sat and just listened to what others were saying around, their stories and jokes and worries and tantrums. Sometimes I laughed, as if to myself.
Peculiarly enough, the week that I was to give up reading, I was also to go to Ohio, to celebrate my mother's 70th birthday. That meant that I would spend long hours in flight and transit lounges (there's a euphemism--uncomfortable places where loudspeakers exhort you, repeatedly, to watch your bags, report suspicious behaviour, step carefully onto the moving sidewalk and other inanities) without print to distract me. What was I going to do?
I walked. I looked at things. I spoke to people. I listened to more conversations. And I did, I'll confess, grade my papers (all of them!)--something I'd already decided wasn't quite reading, but more like accounting (ah the flexibilities of redefinition!) Once in the bosom of my family, I resisted the thousands of books stacked and shelved and lying about the house. I sat quietly, sometimes, or took photographs, or talked with my parents and siblings and their spouses and children. And I learned a few things--
Among them, that reading is often, for me and others in my birth family, a compulsive act of abstraction, a determined flight from the discomforts and disagreements so close at hand between us. I also realized that if I had a bar against reading, then I wasn't compelled to read whatever was set before me...the airline magazine say, or other books lying about, the "extra" and never finished supplements to my classes, or one research project or another....I permitted myself, thanks to the fact that I wasn't reading, to imagine or observe other things while I was waiting, or sitting for a moment, or eating breakfast or dinner alone. (Imagine simply eating! No words!)
I found I was happier, more at ease; I didn't feel guilty all of the time. I wasn't forever accompanied by that awful incompleteness that reading seems to deliver, the threat or the promise of the forever more, the feeling of being out of time, out of step with myself, forever behind.
I'm going to try this experiment again sometime--as soon as I can get through this stack of books and articles and magazines on and beside my desk, the bed, beside the bath, on my other desk, the floor....